I do things that others do, but I am penalized. I have such a heavy burden placed upon me. My thoughts are often deeper than the person next to me. They are easily understood, yet I am not. Nothing about me is average- my thoughts, my goals, my successes, and most certainly not my struggles. My life is not easily understood.
Why this? Why that? Why me? If it were not for my faith in God I would rather not even be alive. There is to much to calculate, to much to wonder, to much to understand, and most things are NOT understood.
When things are going good for us, who needs to understand? Why? It doesn’t matter. It’s all good, so I’m good, no questions asked. When things are bad we wonder why. Why me? Why? This doesn’t make sense.
Job was tested in an unthinkable way- he lost his finances and his children. Job 1:22 says “In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.” Then, it got worse for Job. He lost his health- his body was covered with sores from head to toe. His wife even lost faith. In Job 2:9 she said “Are you still holding on to your integrity? Curse God and die!” Job’s reply was “You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?”
Today I was in a car accident that could have been fatal. I’m extremely thankful to God for protecting my life. I have not a scratch to my body. However, even in the midst of thankfulness I have had my moments of “Why God?”
Thank goodness I have my Bible that’s filled with struggles, battles, and OVERCOMERS. I am inspired by Job’s story and it strengthens me to overcome my troubles. I aspire to have unwavering faith in God- like Job.
Romans 8:28 says “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” I’m anxious to see how God will use this situation to make me better. He’s done it before, so I know he’ll do it again. This is not my first walk around the park.
Stay tuned, I will write about it. 🙂